updates !

Monday
was rotting at home.. n watching "My Date With Vampire I". Cant believe rite.. i am stil slacking my life away.. lolx.. watever.. went to town wif lucas n caught the movie "Divergence". So mani hunks in e movie !! -drools- muahaha.. oh well.. but i found there's no linkage betw the 2 diff parts in the movie.. weirdz.. or is it tt i m too slow to catch the story-line? cant be rite.. lol..

went dinner at nooch.. realli had a hard time deciding on wat to eat.. cos there's jus too much stuffs on e menu !!
i would say tt the food's not bad though.. =)

went home n continued watching my vcd all the way till morning !! when i m supposed to go get some rest.. cos meeting zhen for sentosa on tuesday.. muahaha.. ops..

Tuesday
sentosa trip cancelled !! n so lucky tt it got cancelled.. was raining heavily the whole afternoon.. lol.. so the piggy side of mi started to emerge !! slept thru the whole afternoon.. got woke up by my cousin's call.. seriously have no idea how he got my number.. told him tt i would call back ltr but i didnt.. haha..

went for ktv.. n sth damn idiotic happened to mi..
i fell down !! to think of it.. i even predicted tt i would fall down.. n "PARRGG" i fell.. my 3-quarts was filled wif dirt n mud.. eeewww.. sickening.. rushed home to change.. n i was late.. so sorry gal.. lol.. tml i wont be late !!!

went to clementi partyworld for ktv.. nose blocked n everything.. realli had difficulty singing.. so sad.. =( my cousin was msg-ing mi all the while.. n somehow i felt weird.. its funi tt out of the blue.. he wans to treat mi to dinner when we are not exactly tt close u see..

sang till 11 plus.. went home.. on my way home.. my mom called n i asked her abt my cousin.. i m damn disappointed in her.. sad to say.. ppl realli do change 360 degrees suddenly.. she realli said sth tt trigger the volcano in mi.. n yes.. i erupted.. much to her surprise..

i know she's been thru alot.. n i m so trying my best to acc her n help her.. i always try to stay home n tok to her.. mayb i have communication problem wif her.. she always appears to understand about the things i reason out wif.. n the next moment she completely forgot abt it !! i realli have to say tt my mom isnt the most pleasant person to get along wif.. unknowingly she gets on ppl nerves quite easily n almost all the time.. of cos i have to admit tt i do not have a good temper towards her.. somehow my level of tolerance wif her is low.. mayb cos she's my mom.. n i expect tt she understands my situation which i told her umpteen times.. but i know how she feels during this period.. i know its hard.. tts why i always try to stay by her.. apparently.. she does not understands my situation.. whu would like to be sandwiched betw their parents.. n fark.. i m the most innocent person here.. yet.. she speaks without even giving a tot of how i would feel.. i m hurt.. though i knew she did not mean it.. but words are powerful tools.. they hurt more badly than any physical weapon..

i cried after the phone call.. i dont know why so.. is it tears of anger, tears of disappointment or tears of sadness.. i cant distinguish.. i realli dont know if i could treat her the same way as i used to.. i feel a crack in our relationship.. mom once said tt arguments n quarrels are part n parcel of a relationship.. tt applies to mi, my bro n my dad.. but somehow i began to feel tt too much arguments realli cause a strain.. n a strain would eventualli lead to tiredness n mayb to a point where the relationship is beyond salvage.. tts how it happened to mom n dad.. i finalli understood wat he meant when he said he was tired..... i guess i realli do... i m beginning to feel tired too.....